Saturday, January 3, 2009

Happy New Year 2009

Happy New Year 2009! Well, we're already a few days into the new year, and I am just starting to think about resolutions. What do I want out of 2009? Well, I don't want to set myself up with some ridiculous goals that I will fail and feel bad about. But, there are some things I'd like to get out of this life, and since time waits for no one, I might as well start trying to get the ball rolling.

I tend to be a big idea person. It's all those annoying details that bog me down and diffuse my interest. Since I want to spend more time on my writing, I thought I'd start a blog. But, even in signing up, I am finding myself stuck on step 1- deciding on a screen name. Do I go with something cute and catchy? What if I find myself annoyed with the name in two months? Maybe I should just use my own name? But, then what if I write horribly incriminating things, and everyone will know it was me? Everyone else has cool screen names.

In the end, I realize that I am not really all that cute, catchy or cool. I am just me, so I should probably just label myself as such. Besides, another thing I'd like to work on this year, in addition to spending more time writing, is being more positive. So, I will try to force myself to refrain from being mean and complaining publicly about everyone and everything around me. This in itself is rather a challenge, as I am really quite good at complaining. Those who are closest to me are well aware that I am not always sunshine and roses. A few years ago, when I learned that my first name, Pamela, means “all honey” I laughed hysterically. I could not decide if it was hopefulness or sarcasm that would lead to naming me such a thing. More recently, I learned that my middle name, Marie, means “bitter ocean.” That makes a lot more sense. I don't really follow astrology, but I do see some coincidences with my Gemini twin split personality traits.

Anyway, I'm going to really try to focus on what's good in my world, or at least what can be done about what isn't so good. I have to complain a little you know. I'm trying to be realistic here. Hopefully the idea of primarily writing about the good news will also keep me out of hot water with my friends, family and co-workers who happen along my rants. No guarantees on that though.

OK, on to step 2. Now they want me to come up with a title, and it's probably one of those things that will be difficult to change later. Great. It's awfully early in the day to be making decisions that I have to live with. It's making me feel rather indecisive. OK, I guess it's really not that big of a deal. It's just a name for a blog. Blog, blog, blog. That's it.

I guess I'm up and running with my first attempt at 2009 resolutions- more writing and more positive thinking. Now, I'm off to you tube to search for belly dance lesson videos for the exercise portion of my healthy new year, which will of course be followed by a big, chocolate mocha.